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[ She knows she wants to help too, and while she hasn't met Kell yet, she makes a mental note to talk to Rhy. ]

This is what it was like when Horde Prime took over Etheria.

[ Adora breathes out the words and feels her chest tighten. She-Ra wouldn't give anyone hope here, and she realizes that even when she felt her worst back then, at least she could show up and let people assume she knew what she was doing to save them, even if she didn't feel confident in herself. In some ways that was harder, and in others, it gave her strength. ]

I'm glad you showed me. And thanks for explaining, all know a lot of this was probably explained. I didn't...Catra and I were just...[ Her cheeks pinken and she's glad they're ducking into the dim establishment. She'd been so wrapped up in Catra because she could be, that for the first time in her life, she hadn't paid attention to much in the beginning. Slipping into her seat, she looks around carefully, not attempting to draw attention to herself. Finally, once she's seen enough, she looks at Istredd.]

If I need to be around people, can I at least have a new room?

[ She's by herself, and she'd rather be alone or with others in a space that doesn't faintly hold Catra's scent. She wants to leave before it fades, if she can. Dimly, she's aware that maybe she sounds like she's whining, and she looks down at her hands awkwardly. ]

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You were focused on living a life finally, and I understand that. I'm sorry it was taken from you.

[ It's what they talked about, having a life, being able to take a beat. It's not that Istredd wants her to stop having one, it's more that he knows what will help distract her until this pain is less constant. Comfort can only do so much, but when the comfort has no answers like 'she'll definitely be back,' it's all cold at best. Sometimes he and Lucifer get wrapped up in each other too.]

Of course you can. You can move closer to us and come knock on my door any time.

[ Istredd's sad about the loss too, to a lesser extent. He liked Catra, he was looking forward to her experiencing the type of life she couldn't have too. He planned on nurturing that with her, since they had some things in common. And it's difficult to see a young happy couple split apart like this, especially Adora being such a positive youth usually. ]

We look out for each other, Adora. You're not alone, as much as it feels like you are.

[ It does make her feel better to know she's welcome closer to where Istredd is; his offer and his words both make her tear up, and she swipes her hand under her eyes. She's looking at Istredd like she wants him to tell her why, for there to be a good reason Catra was here and then snatched away before they had time to really try. ]

Thank you.

[ She was never going to tell anyone everything that happened between her and Catra because so much of it was only Catra's part to tell. But she isn't here anymore, and Adora needs someone to know she's breaking a promise. ]

I promised I would never leave her alone again, Istredd. I left her behind once, and she was almost gone forever. What if something happens, and I'm not there?

We look out for each other here.

[ He reassures her. Istredd may be the driving force of that much of the time, a choice he made when he decided to be more than someone hiding in the library, but he means it all the same. The Thorne Summoned have to connect or they'll all end up lost and alone in this tense situation. She's young and she needs people, he could tell that right away.

Istredd does know that she was hesitant to talk too much about her relationship. Catra's more secretive, he could tell that right away. Much like Lucifer. He shakes his head.]

No, there are people who have gone home and come back. They said they returned exactly to the moment they left and they forgot this place, until they came back. But that means she still has you, just not this you.

[ He'd consider that a comfort himself if he had people who really cared about him on the other end. Yennefer and Triss do, but he has far more people here who would be upset if he disappeared from Thorne. He does think it would be comforting though, to know somewhere a loved one is safe. Safer than they are here, really.]

I know it doesn't change how you feel, but you didn't leave her.

[ She left Adora, actually. Not by choice. But it's what happened.]

[ There's a lump in her throat when Istredd says that. We look out for each other here. It's like having a family which helps soothe the sting of being without the bonds she formed on Etheria. Swallowing hard, the gratitude might as well be radiating off of her. Being alone is one of her biggest fears now that she knows she doesn't have to be, that Shadow Weaver isolated her on purpose.

Then he keeps going, and her eyes dart around as she processes the information. Catra is home, still on that hill with her planning their immediate future. That's maybe as perfect of a moment she could be in. It doesn't change that she's sad, but it does alleviate her irrational guilt. Closing her eyes, she takes a deep breath and lets it out softly. ]

I didn't know that. It helps, I don't feel like she'd be mad I'm still here, anymore. It still isn't fair to let her be here just long enough to have a routine together and feel...normal.

[ As 'normal' as it gets, anyway. Adora brushes away a stray tear and then takes a more fortifying breath, one that has her straightening up a little in her seat. There were so many moments during the rifts when she thought Catra could be hurt, and hurt badly. Now that she knows Catra is gone, there's no more worrying about it. There's no more hesitating to jump head-first into deepening her connection with the Singularity. ]

So, what can I do here? I want to know and learn everything I can about my magic, and the Singularity. If it asked me for help once, maybe it will again. I want to be stronger, just in case I can do more than just send a message.

[ Istredd wasn't always a team player but this place changed him. Even when he was growing up, he kept apart from the other mages, and they weren't exactly trained to be a team so much as competition at times. Easy to fall into line when they had to fight, otherwise a power play. He isolated and then he was here and the situation forced him to change, and he's grateful that it did. It means he has the ability to soothe other people who come here with the message that made his life better.]

It is very unfair, this place can be difficult to adapt to. Knowing her, she'd probably be more worried to know you're some place alone, but you aren't alone.

[ Istredd knows that would be part of it, if he went back and some part of his brain knew that he was, it would be very worried for Lucifer being left behind. That's what happens when you love someone. But it's not something they can actually change or do anything about, that's the problem. They have no power on this issue, and it's a tough thing to swallow, but it's reality.]

I know various people have been trying to look into the spell that brought us here, either to anchor us to stay here, or to send us home, so it could be possible eventually.

[ He is one of those people, the anchor in particular his focus. There are a lot of people, himself included, who would like to stay. But he's willing to look into how to send people back too, they seem like two sides of the same coin. If one is figured out, the other one probably can be too.

She takes a turn toward problem-solving and he thought that's probably where this would end up, which is why he took her to Nott.]

You can ask Rhy what will be helpful in Nott, he and Kell have been working on ways to improve it, but there's no harm in getting to know the people here. We have a portal open and you just have to be back by sunset.

[ Istredd comes here sometimes to go to the book store, but not very frequently. Rhy has seemed more interested in doing lasting change here, and he assumes she already knows him.)

I can teach you the native magic but I've also trained people on their own magic. I have seventy-some years of experience so I'm pretty good at it. The Singularity may call on you again, it does that.

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